I don't remember if I said this before but i work for a non profit and it's a great place to work, perfect fit. I am the youth program assistant / a bunch of other things. Anyway as much as I LOVE working there it has it downsides. If I haven't started working there I wouldn't have even thought about going on the pump and for that i am grateful because I am in such better control and feel so much better. But on the flip side of everything it has opened my eyes up a lot more. I knew diabetes was serious if you don't take care of yourself but even if you do you can still run into complications. Working at there has opened up my eyes to how serious diabetes really is. Diabetes is the topic almost all day long for 5days a week and sometimes 6 days I guess it has freaked me out that it can be inevitable that you will run into problems. I even changed my BS goal from 120 to 100 because I want to be in better control.
I always say that my dad is a "walking time bomb" because he is Type1 Diabetic and doesn't take care of himself at all but then it got me to thinking that arn't we all "walking time bombs" and his is just already LIT? I try not to let diabetes get to me but it just hit me recently. And i don't mean to be really negative but no one else besides you fellow diabetics would understand how I'm feeling, because i know we all have these days. Oh yeah and i promise that there will be a up beat post someday :)... I already feel better after letting that out.